messed it up

Ok .. i did not change anything so far.. i was drunk again .. totally drunk.. totally fucked up.. cant remember anything except that i did many stupid things that night. 

i still didnt start studying (but tomorrow i will.... seriously!) 

i'm still doing nothing the whole day.. oh and i have been on a date with a blockhead. I really must have been totally drunk when i decided to give this guy my number. "What do you like to do in your free time?" "Ohh ... smoking ganja the whole day.. i looove ganjaa...."  "What's your favourite movie genre?" "Porn movies" ... and he meant this answers seriously. Fuck him. At least he paid for my cinema ticket.

Still havent heard anything from C. Althoug i really would have needed talking to him a bit... but well obviously he just doesnt care about me anymore... it's easy to not care, because i am gone now... and he doesnt have to see me ... it makes it easier to forget.  But it doesnt work with me like that... i never forget easily.. 

whatever.. 

instead i had a nice msn-webcam conversation with S recently.. He lives in Paris. I got to know him during my vacations in cannes in july.  He's really a great guy.. and i am so sad that he lives that far away =/ it felt good seeing him again, although it was only via webcam ... he is a good friend and i'd like to meet him again one day.. and maybe i will ... becauseee my italian friend G (the girl i got to know in Lebanon) and me are planning to have a trip to Paris in December... but i have to pass my exams first.... If it works I will fly over to her to Rome and stay there for a few days and then we will take a flight together from rome to paris...  it would be so much fun, i know it ... so pleeeeaseee make it happen!!!! =/ 

Good Night freaky life